Karmic Regression Tests
May. 30th, 2021 07:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
youngelephantSoftware engineers often utilize a principle called regression tests. I think of this concept as verifying the previously existing code still works after a change of a certain magnitude. This ensures that the basic functional characteristics of code still work after making a change to it and reduces the risk in making said change. Engineers routinely find bugs or errors after testing and I can vouch for the usefulness of this practice.
For those on the spiritual path, life throws us karmic regression tests. If we make an improvement in some aspect of our lives, we should rest sound assured that the Cosmos will test us to see if the improvement is truly embedded in our characters. This happens in accordance with the spiral model of self actualization and, in my experience, the cosmos will test us time and time again until we have ingrained the change in consciousness into our characters.
For example, I used to be addicted to cannabis. I have had opportunity after opportunity to smoke cannabis again for the last couple of years and have no problem turning it down. This habit, or function of my soul, has ingrained itself in my consciousness.
After initially quitting cannabis, I turned to vaping nicotine. I eventually quit that too. I have a certain sensitivity of my aura, and the nicotine made it increasingly turbulent the more I did it. The Cosmos continues to give me opportunities to vape nicotine, and I can’t say I have had as much success passing this regression test and incorporating nicotine abstinence in my character.
I go for long periods of time without it, and then soon enough, someone around me will offer it up and I’ll take a couple hits. This occurs most reliably when I travel with my family. I won’t bore you all with the details, but I do this around twice a year in recent history. Siblings and family friends always have their vapes on them, and the stagnant portion of my astral body will at some point possess me to ask for a hit or two. After that I usually snowball the rest of the trip and do it regularly until we part ways. I don’t regress into buying the stuff myself though.
When regular life resumes I can get back to normal and stop the habit.
Each time this occurs I suffer more acutely while I partake. My perception of my higher self frowns at me, and my internal monologue will wrestle with itself of whether to ask for another hit at a later time or quit. It brings about a certain degree of suffering.
I know several public occultists talk about tobacco and nicotine use, but I still think this is a gross manifestation of my lower self, and I need to quit the stuff to evolve further. Nicotine increases the sensitivity to my own aura due to increased turbulence and decreases sensitivity to the energies of the outside world, which is something I want to cultivate.
One of these days I strive to “just say no” enough times to the point where I no longer feel the temptation. At the moment, I’ll just say the regression tests continue to get the better of me. Until I can pass the tests, this hungry ghost mentality will incorporate itself into my character and cause me to suffer. AE Powell does not speak of good things happening in the afterlife for those addicted to nicotine. I must beat this. My soul, my character, my destiny offer themselves up as the stakes.
Afterthoughts: I originally thought I would write here more often after my first post. All of the ecosophia commentariat who write here on dreamwidth inspire me greatly. It seems like the ideal social media. I did create a document where I write up posts but something got in my head where I became afraid to publish them. I wrote up several that I think demonstrated some decent thinking. I honestly have a paranoid relationship with “to be silent”. I don’t know how much I should say or shouldn’t say, and that virtue gives me a constant struggle.
For those on the spiritual path, life throws us karmic regression tests. If we make an improvement in some aspect of our lives, we should rest sound assured that the Cosmos will test us to see if the improvement is truly embedded in our characters. This happens in accordance with the spiral model of self actualization and, in my experience, the cosmos will test us time and time again until we have ingrained the change in consciousness into our characters.
For example, I used to be addicted to cannabis. I have had opportunity after opportunity to smoke cannabis again for the last couple of years and have no problem turning it down. This habit, or function of my soul, has ingrained itself in my consciousness.
After initially quitting cannabis, I turned to vaping nicotine. I eventually quit that too. I have a certain sensitivity of my aura, and the nicotine made it increasingly turbulent the more I did it. The Cosmos continues to give me opportunities to vape nicotine, and I can’t say I have had as much success passing this regression test and incorporating nicotine abstinence in my character.
I go for long periods of time without it, and then soon enough, someone around me will offer it up and I’ll take a couple hits. This occurs most reliably when I travel with my family. I won’t bore you all with the details, but I do this around twice a year in recent history. Siblings and family friends always have their vapes on them, and the stagnant portion of my astral body will at some point possess me to ask for a hit or two. After that I usually snowball the rest of the trip and do it regularly until we part ways. I don’t regress into buying the stuff myself though.
When regular life resumes I can get back to normal and stop the habit.
Each time this occurs I suffer more acutely while I partake. My perception of my higher self frowns at me, and my internal monologue will wrestle with itself of whether to ask for another hit at a later time or quit. It brings about a certain degree of suffering.
I know several public occultists talk about tobacco and nicotine use, but I still think this is a gross manifestation of my lower self, and I need to quit the stuff to evolve further. Nicotine increases the sensitivity to my own aura due to increased turbulence and decreases sensitivity to the energies of the outside world, which is something I want to cultivate.
One of these days I strive to “just say no” enough times to the point where I no longer feel the temptation. At the moment, I’ll just say the regression tests continue to get the better of me. Until I can pass the tests, this hungry ghost mentality will incorporate itself into my character and cause me to suffer. AE Powell does not speak of good things happening in the afterlife for those addicted to nicotine. I must beat this. My soul, my character, my destiny offer themselves up as the stakes.
Afterthoughts: I originally thought I would write here more often after my first post. All of the ecosophia commentariat who write here on dreamwidth inspire me greatly. It seems like the ideal social media. I did create a document where I write up posts but something got in my head where I became afraid to publish them. I wrote up several that I think demonstrated some decent thinking. I honestly have a paranoid relationship with “to be silent”. I don’t know how much I should say or shouldn’t say, and that virtue gives me a constant struggle.
